Anger....Scared of Beautiful.......

What if you had the eyes of anger and couldn't see anything but anger in front of you? How different would your life be by seeing through those eyes. Not saying, that at times with unfairness, injustice, and just life's disappointments, we all at times see through those eyes. Some people may think anger is something that we should never feel. I think anger is a great sign that lets you know, yes you are a living being. You are real. I think its also best to express when you are angry. I was telling one of my closest friends, I was really pissed about something, and he introduced me to a cool dude, Mooji. I watched one of his videos and was blown away by his wisdom. What he said was profound. When you can clearly see the anger, identify it, communicate it, express it, its beautiful. However, don't let it consume you. I've had a habit in the past of holding stuff in, and eventually it would surface in other toxic ways. Trying to lie to myself, like the shit would pass, but it never did. It would come out in other ways. Some people I noticed, would take it out on someone else. I've never had that problem, but I would be on some grudgeful stuff for real. I noticed that about myself and didn't like it. I totally did not like how I felt. But it was me. My fault, I didn't express how I was REALLY feeling about it. I didn't know how to express it. I just allowed it to happen. Then I had that moment where the fairie came and waved her magic wand of enlightenment in my face. If I didn't express what I was feeling, what I did not like, would happen over and over again. I didn't realize I could make a situation so much better if I expressed it, even if it was anger. I had to own that. A lot of times I wouldn't express it because I felt I would lose something or someone, so I held it in. Boy, was I wrong. I would dwell on it, and get mad. Sometimes I would be completely pissed for no reason, because I didn't know how to express it. It would consume me. I'm a pretty easy going person, however when I get to that point, I feel sorry for whoever is around me. A lady that came to do a workshop at a school I once taught did a workshop on the different types of personalities, and she said I sounded at that time more like a volcano. I've never gotten to that point, but I can. While I was trying to be nice, and not express it, it was inside me. It had to come out of me. I would make smart comments and hold grudges and all kind of shit. I realize, we all have Ego. I have one. However, when your soul is trying to tell you something, but your Ego is not allowing you to listen, maybe that's a time to take a step back, and take notice. I feel that my soul, always and I rarely say always, but in this case for me, ALWAYS leads me to the path that aligns with peace within. Always. I can say there has never been a case where when I listen to my soul, it hasn't shown me that. My Ego, however has shown me a whole lot of things. It has shown me that I was a superhero, yet the situation didn't need a superhero, it only needed my honesty. Not saying that Ego doesn't have its place, it does. I just think that in some instances, it took anger to kick me in the ass, and get me to that place. I had to realize I didn't need to hold it in, or allow it to consume me. When I did, it only hurt me. It stops all the B.S., and allows both parties involved to get to the real stuff that's going on. I was listening to one of my fav artist's Brandy, and she has this song called, "Scared of Beautiful". It says, "Myself aint never talked to me like that before. And I wonder, what on Earth is she searching for? There's no mirrors on these walls no more, You can't tell me why, you are so terrified of beautiful. Scared of the Good more than the evil, Scared of the light more than the dark, Scared of the truth so much more than a lie, I'm scared of Me......In that moment, I thought this is what it is. We all love happiness, however anger can uncover whatever is going on, bring it to light, and allow you get to that beautiful place. So if you get angry, be aware, its okay. You no longer have to be "Scared of the Beautiful its trying to get you to".

Moving beyond words...

In life, there will be some things that you simply cannot overlook. There will come a time when you have to evaluate what's really important, and what's moving you closer to listening to the most important person that can change your life, yourself. We can become so attached to things, and at times, become overwhelmed, and so absorbed, that we lose focus. The distractions take the lead, and prolong, what we could have or should have been doing in the first place. I was having a deep convo with my mom, and she was talking about how people were acting towards her because of a disagreement. Her time in this space was coming to an end. She felt it, she knew it, yet she was so engulfed in what the other voices were saying, and not listening to the most important voice, her own. She kept telling me that it didn't bother her, because she will tell a person off in a minute, (which is true), however, I know it hurt her. In the end, she found a bright new beginning and is in a better place because of realizing one thing. She had to let go. When we let go, there is something that we can learn from the experience.

Move beyond the words, and fall into action. Many talk about dreams, but when we move beyond the words of saying, "I wish" and we move into action, what a beautiful place. If many of our most notable scientists, athletes, teachers, actors, actresses, and notables listened to others who said they couldn't do it, or achieve what they wanted, we could never experience some of the greatest minds and talents in the world. When we listen to that inner voice, a whole new world can open up. That world is exciting, creative and peaceful. Need not worry what others do, you are the most important person in determining your happiness. However, I do believe in karma, and in everything you do, and how you do it, it will come back to you in one way or another. Exerting energy to something that is however inhibiting your creative energy, is a waste. Refocus your energy on the growth of your soul. When you do this, you can easily move beyond the words and find the greatest treasure, your peace.

Appreciation....What a Day!

Appreciation. What does it mean? The dictionary states a couple of things. It means thankful recognition, and it can also mean an increase in the value of property goods. The kind of appreciation I am expressing however is thankful recognition. Appreciation is what I realized after today, is something that is powerful and wonderful to give and receive. Anyone can show you how much they appreciate you. It doesn't take a whole lot, sometimes it could be something as simple as saying, "thank you". Many couples complain about not feeling appreciated. One lover may cook all the time, and the other lover may never say thank you. One lover may pay all the bills, and provide financial support, yet "thank you" is never uttered from their lips. A friend may do something difficult for another friend, yet they never hear "thank you". The little things such as appreciating someone, can go a very long way. Today was that day! Yet a day, I was initially frightened of. I was ready for it to get here so I could get this nervous feeling out of my system. It was the day of an appreciation for me, as well as my homeboy who plays drums with me each and every Sunday. I am a musician, and there are several events, charities, and organizations that I have had the honor of playing music for. Today, this small little country church, wanted to show me how much they appreciated us in a big way! I was so honored, but a part of me is shy when it comes to those things. Even though people, ministers, and strangers come to me and tell me they are amazed at my gifts and talents as a musician, I still shy away or try to avoid being out in front. I don't know why, I just do. They told me that they knew if I wanted to, I could easily be somewhere else, but the Good Lord saw fit that I was suppose to be there. It was really touching and awesome. As I continue to walk my journey, I've learned you can find some amazing people, in small groups. It doesn't take a big crowd to do some exciting and awesome things. As I've matured I realize something very important, and that is knowing whatever gift or talent you have, do it with love. I could be the most skilled musician, but if I play without love, or my attitude bleeds arrogance and pride, I will probably get that back in one way or another. Some of the smallest groups have touched me tremendously and I am so grateful to have encountered them in my journey. They may say I have blessed them, but each time I inspire someone, they inspire me as well. Each time someone says I encourage them, they encourage me as well. Music has a way of saying what we can't say with words, but we can feel with the melody of a tune. It is true what I heard once, you get what you give. If you give love, you will get it back. I'm just thankful I have the opportunity to turn a frown into a smile, or give people the encouragement of knowing you can do anything you set your heart and mind to if you believe. Music has a way of relaying that message and I am grateful to be a musician that carries its message. You can let anyone know how much you appreciate them and this small group did it in a big way. All I can say is thank you and I'm so grateful just to be appreciated ! Until Next Time, D.

Evolve....Eventually....

I use to look at this stuff, and say "Ewww"...Nasty"...Who wants that crap besides, Popeye. Now I eat this stuff everyday...Yes, I said, Errrday. I love it. It has grown on me, and I realize, its good for me. It's funny, my mom at one time had an iron deficiency, and I felt I had it as well. They say, spinach is a great source of Iron. I just decided to try spinach instead of lettuce in making a salad one day recently. I simply add toasted coconut, almonds, and some crispy onions with an organic pomegranate salad dressing and I fell in love. When I'm at work, sometimes I'll go to a sub shop for lunch, and they don't even ask me what I want, they start making my spinach salad before I say a word...haha! I would have never known I would grow to like it, if I wasn't open to try it. I have been listening to some deep motivational meditations lately, and its funny how I attracted and desired something, that I needed. However, I was not a fan of spinach before, at all. If you would have asked me about ten years ago if I would have had spinach salads everyday, I would have laughed in your face. You never know the things around you that you may overlook, only to all of a sudden, find out, those things that we don't like today, could be something that we eventually evolve into loving. Until Next Time, D.

Take It........

Grab it...go for yours...Reach beyond. When you breathe in that energy, everything opens up. Take it higher. Everything around you will respond. It has no choice. You are the master of your own destiny. I needed to get my tires changed today and listened to one of the men that worked at the store. He had big dreams of opening his own place and I smiled because you could feel his excitement and enthusiasm within every syllable he spoke. I'm not sure what it was, but he wanted to open up and talk to me, so I listened. There is so much power in words, and the things you say to yourself. His face came alive when he described how he wanted to open his own business. Something that resonated with me as I listened was when he stated, "i've been told you have one life and I have to take my chance. The chance is there, but I must take the first step. The first step is difficult and scary in many situations, but as long as we have life, the chance is there. Doubt and fear do nothing to move us forward in our goals, desires, hopes and dreams. When we reach beyond the fear and doubt and move into a place of courage, you can dance to the rhythm of your own drum. Dance baby, dance....Take it, and know that whatever you want, is already yours...:-) Until next time, Peace. D.

Aww Shucks!! Peas and Collard greens....

on New Years Day! I feel it. I sense it. New ideas, creativity, and drive are all on the horizon for the New Year. It's gonna be a great year! The old saying goes, if you eat collards, more money, if you eat black eyed peas, great luck to you. I had both served to me today so I must be one of the luckiest, wealthiest aliens on the planet:-)

I'm believing it and It feels great coming from my lips. I'd rather hear myself say those words, than believe anything else.:-) 2012 was a great year for me, I met some wonderful people last year of whom were brought into my path for a reason. Some of those reasons I think are still yet unfolding:-) I feel like there was a lot of creativeness within and it all will show its beautiful purpose in the New Year. I ended the year and began the year doing something I love which is playing some fun music with some great musicians. It was a gig that I learned so much from and it was a sign to me, that is one of the things I can look forward to within the New Year. These were very seasoned musicians and I was honored just to be around their wealth of knowledge. I learn so much and feel connected to seasoned souls:-) I walked in the door around 3:30 a.m. after my gig, and reflected on all the things I accomplished in 2012. I began to smile and thought about all the wonderful possibilities of peace, happiness, and joy awaiting each of us in 2013. The ball is in your court. All you have to do is take the shot. Go for it and embrace all the new endeavors, love, and blessings headed your way. I'm not afraid of the "13" at all, it is just the beginning of all the new wonderful possibilities that await each of us. Well, off to unloading gear gadgets from a gig:-) Until next time, Peace. D.